I just remembered that I had one of these. Weird. Well I don't know if I'll be using this ever again, more then likely I'll once again forget that I have it. So if you want to keep up with me or get to know me you can head over to my LJ. zangetsu@LJ which is friends only or check out my website; ashkeNET.

 

Well that is all... eheh. Yeah.  

Just remembered that I had a tabulas. XD; Isn't that so funny? No... oh well you are mean. I changed its name again to Fake wings, I like this name better and all. I will try my best to update here but seeing as I have a blog and a LJ to post in I might forget so forgive me if I do. x.x;;

Anyway I think I'll make lots of new avatars for here since I am so bored. x.x

It is not like anyone well read this or anything but whatever...

I have been feeling so depressed and so alone. I mean I do talk to people online yet I still feel so alone. I am feeling out of it and sleepy a lot more then I have ever have. And most of the time I just wish that I could disappear and just not be here... maybe I want to die. Well as long as there would be no pain then I am ok with it... I doubt anyone would care. I mean god... I think no one knows that my birthday is even coming up... its like I've been forgotten.

Also I am somewhat upset at a friend and I think that they know that I am in a bad mood. Its just that I am thinking something maybe I shouldn't about them that is making me upset. I think this person knows who they are so if they want to know about this little problem here IM me so I can tell you over that.

I think I will go to sleep now... maybe try to get up around 6 am and go for morning job or something.


Here are some closing lyrics that I think fit my mood pretty well.

Things are going crazy and I'm not sure who to blame
everything is changing and I do not feel the same
I'm slipping through the cracks of floors I thought that were strong
I'm trying to find a place where I can feel like I belong

Well, I am crying
you aren't trying
I am melting away

I am so very mad right now. I have been trying and trying to get GM (Greymatter)to work but it just fucking won't. It is giving me a freaky headache. Damn GM... just might not put my blog there anymore...

Been playing RO like crazy, working on my Archer Tristan. He has 9 more lvls to go until he becomes a hunter and it is getting so hard to do since I have no one to play with. *whines* Right now K-chan is helping me save up money for a Bapho Jr. pet egg. I give her the stuff to sell and she sells it for me, she also holds onto the money since if I had it I'd used it. @.@;;

Another then RO nothing has happened. My parnets are going to the race this sunday, I was asked to go but turned down the chance since I really am not feeling up to going with them. So I'll be here all by myself sunday. Hope I can rent a movie or something...

Man do I ever hate halloween. It sucks so much, I hate the kids in their costumes, I hate the fact they go around for candy, I just hate it and I hate that I had to watch a little kid tonight. Even if I was online over there and played a little RO until all the towns came under attack it sucked! Very boring as well and I rather disliked their computer even though it was super fast. *hugs her own computer* My baby.

But gawd man, what a bad night. They finally got home and brought me home and yes I got paid but I have to give the money to my mom. ~_~ So what I did tonight gave me nothing in return. Hate this so much.

I am starting to feel as though Rion (my rpg blog character) doesn't belong anymore. Or maybe it is me that is feeling that. I really don't know at this time. I am also mad at myself. No clue why.

I wish I lived near K. x.x;;; I feel so alone when I don't get to talk to her. Tch... I think I am going to go do something.. I am cold and my hands are shaking.

I have a new layout for this little place! I hope that you like it and I hope that it fits in your screensize. I don't think it works well in 800x600 but i don't know since I am not using that size. Anyway this layout is featuring W-inds. I really hot j-pop band. Love them! <3

Also I have closed my blog at (http://www.lethal-wings.net) down since GM was being a bitch. Now I have to go to everything I ever joined and tell them all. Oh dear this is going to be a pain in the rear. ~_~;;;

but now I am wondering maybe if I shouldn't have moved my blog. O_O

Found this on a friends blog. Answer the questions as a comment. Thanks. XD

01] When/How did we meet?
02] What was your 1st impression of me?
03] Have you ever seen me cry?
04] Have you ever seen me dance?
05] Have you ever seen me drunk/high?
06] If you can spend a day with me, what would we do?
07] Have we ever gotten in a fight? If yes, what was it about?
08] If you could give me a gift, what would it be?
09] What major thing do we have in common?
10] What makes me different from others?
11] Have you ever made me laugh/have i ever made you laugh? If yes, about what
12] Describe me using four or less words:
13] What do you think you know about me that only you know about?
14] What is my best feature?
15] Would you hug me?
16] Would you kiss me?

Anyway my blog has a new layout. Go see it and tell me what you think of it. Thanks. ^_^

I have a new kitty named Jeepers. It is a boy that is six weeks old. Picture.

I have taken picture of me. Click one. Click two. Two is kind of bright. eheh.

Shopping this saturday I think, going to get a costume for halloween. Yay. Fun. Maybe get some anime too but doubtful. Boo. Not fun.

No clue why I am typing like this but I had to post something here.